January 2011
“In spite of the way you were mocking me, acting like I was part of your...”
– Linkin Park (In The End)
Friendship
Going through hard times, costs you more than you realize sometimes. You lose more than you think you are at the time, because you can’t see through the fog. You can’t get a clear picture of what you are doing. All you feel is the pain, all you see is the struggle, all you hear is the uncomfortable silence, all you smell is rotten air. You can’t see what is slipping, what...
Death becomes her.
Last year was, something I needed. I was free for a few months, free to develop my emotions, strengthen my bonds, build new ones, and let some go. Now that I actually took a good look back, I’m not sure if I like the outcome.
I let go of some people that I hung on to so deeply, where did that love go?
I built a new bond with someone I was once close to that hurt me, it was STRONG in April...
“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thoughts
Thoughts plague me, I think too much. I constantly think, thinking of the worse possible thought, to buff myself when i hear the news. Usually there never is news, I’m training my head to think horrible, to buff my nerves, to soothe myself. I’m making it worse, I’m ripping my nerves in half leaving them frayed. New goal: learn to think positively, it’s so much easier said...
Escape
Escaping my own head for a day sounds ridiculously unimaginable.
I don’t know if I rule my world around me, or if I try to rule my mind.
I can’t decide if I move myself or remove myself
I can’t tell if it’s my hormones or my day to dislike you
I can’t tell if it’s my dilemma all my mind just having a bad day
is it your conquest to speak words that set me...
Fanatic
I am an extreme fanatic of make-up. I feel as if I need to get myself back into something I am truly fanatic about. Something, that inspires me, make me feel alive again. I need to do something about this…get into it.
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